After months and month of planning we are finally off and on the road and am so excited we are. I was beginning to wonder if after all this time the trip would actually even happen. As some of you might know I own and run a small handmade business back home. I am absolutely one of the luckiest people in the world to be able to make a living making artwork, but it sometimes comes with struggles of being able to walk away and just take a holiday. A whole string of fears of, what if I miss that sale online if I shut it down? What if people forget about me? … these all seam ridiculous, but any small business owner can likely relate. You tell yourself, “screw it, just go, it will all be there when you get back” which is very true, but when you love your job and love what you do the thought of, “screw it I am leaving” isn’t really something you think about.
Unfortunately though quite a few bumps after tons of planning all started to happen at the beginning of January. Originally I was meant to be off Jan 2nd, which turned into the 8th, the 15th, Feb 6th, and well … I just shrugged my shoulders at that point. I am never one to stress out much since in business it is best to just roll with it and keep adapting. Sticking to plans can sometimes cause more harm. At times I questioned if it was fear of leaving keeping me back, but those thoughts were quick and thrown out the window. If anyone knows my past this is something I have done for the past 15 years, and yes even at times solo and even before Baron was my sidekick. For many I am sure this is a very real thing, but I did question if I was officially getting old and was maybe now suddenly a worry of mine. Happy to report it still isn’t.
However, I did at times feel like I was failing since so many people kept asking, “are you on your trip yet?” They were just excited for me to go, but every time I just had to come back with a disappointing answer of “no!” It’s tough to explain to people who aren’t in the same type of handmade show business life what happens behind the scenes. Even though they think they get it, they don’t. So for weeks I just had to say no and know that for myself, my business and Baron I was making the right decision.
My little Canadian moose hanging from my rearview mirror!
Plus to add to the many things there was a little thing called the weather. Holy moly the US is getting hit, the east, west and central. If we had left early we would have been heading East and would have been caught in ice and rain storms, a little earlier we would have been in the south when all the tornadoes hit … watching that one on the news what a quick reality check. In October we had plans to head to Denver for a mini trip right when a freak snowstorm hit in Alberta the day we were leaving. And then again to Denver in January, oh wait … 45 cm - 60 cm of snow and days of avalanche warnings shutting down the highways. Hahaha. Okay nope, let go west instead … oh 100 cm of rain in 24 hours you say? … that sounds fun. Fine we will go south to California, oh? it’s flooding there … super.
So after all the business stuff, questioning if I am getting old and well Mother Nature … don’t mess with it, I can FINALLY say we are on the road and so happy I put everything in a good place before we left. Otherwise I knew I would just be leaving with a list of things to deal with when I came home. I did leave myself with only 2 weeks restock and ship out all my freight to one of my biggest shows in Toronto. Ha. For all your handmade people when you see me in Toronto and I look like garbage after my vacation, this is why. Although Baron and I are off very late on this trip, we still managed to make it happen, even if it means no sleep when we get home and waiting a few extra days here exploring the mountains of Alberta and BC while the rain and flooding passes back over California. I still can’t control the weather sadly, but I can try to avoid it.
Hope if you are reading this and struggling with anything stopping you from leaving, know that it will happen exactly how it is meant to and to just be patient and wait for the path you’re meant to take.